The amusement of a college student...

Tonight (perhaps against my better judgement, perhaps not) I attended a school dance.  I found it to be just as amusing as I had remembered.  There were folks solomly meandering about looking for their "group" of friends to cut loose with, as if it were impossible to dance without them.  There were also the folks wandering about asking "have you seen so and so?".  Girls and boys in silly dress up clothes (I was sportin' the ever popular tie-dyed slip/skirt and a lime green polo… I did get dressy enough to include the whale earings as well.)  The perpetually amusing part was the whole personal space invasion.  I recall the mantra of me and the other Megan "spin away!" which came in handy when the randoms came out in full force.  I do declare that in the midst of all of that sillyness I somehow found a bit of soul shakin'… which was why I went.  Also amusing is the whole boy thing… So I'm feeling quite free and empowered at the moment, acknowledging that my being single is a decision I made and a darn good one at that.  But there are always those back burner folks that you keep in your peripheral vision… and interestingly enough two of those folks happened to both be in relationships (I was wondering…) and then there was the ever awkward tag-along who I had already decided not to date.  It seemed all the signs were saying "megan, it is a great time for you to focus on you".  Reflecting on the evening it all seems exceedingly petty and rediculous… but there is something real I find in dancing, some sort of  trans in a state of joyful presence. 

After the dance I had a chat to Tiffany who is in the midst of many struggles of the heart between a few fellas.  She's in a class-a bind and it made me most grateful that I was not in any sort of mix-up… that my heart is not in the volnerable position of a relationship right now…. That I won't have that to worry about as I decipher my post-Berea plans from the primortial soup of my current life.  I was reminded (as I am daily it seems) that life is so much more about getting back on your path than staying there.  In family relations we learned that one predictor of divorce is not how often a couple fights, but how successfully they make up.  So too is the case in life-it's not (and never has been!) about keeping focus, but rather finding focus again and again. 

May you find the something to be joyful about today :)

Thankful list:
-cake (there seems to be an abundance of it here)
-perspective shifts
-expression
-Iron and wine
-clean water
-being able to breathe well! 
-leisure reading
-sunshine
-freedom of heart
-dancing
-time for centering
-sleep
-hammocks
-the ability to read