well shoot... here it is 6am already...

So... I've not slept in 12 days and this past night was my final evenin' on asthma meds that keep me up... Hooray!  I know I'm overdue for an early morning reflection... so here I am... I've been out on the porch since 4:45am, couldn't sleep... and thank goodness.  The morning has been beautiful.  Cloudy yes, but cozy.  The birds started in just after 4 and the rooster down the road not long after.  I'm overcome with appreciation for this day.  Since I've already surfed the internet to my heart's content, watched every movie I wanted to see, and read until I couldn't focus in the past 11 nights, this one was just for reflecting.

 

I've learned a lot this year!  Shoot!  I can't even sum it up, but for some reason feel obligated to make an attempt....

-I've gotten to have space to create my own spiritual routines and rituals, and this has been greatly supported by RVUUC, I am so so so grateful for that congregation.  Solstice means a lot to me...and here we are, near the summer one already... what a crazy world this is that turns on itself and these seasons that spin us so. 

-as I've said before-I'm a country mouse, and I actually (much to my surprise!) have roots back east....

-Life is probably all about healing.

-Music is in this heart of mine, and a music community is a necessity in my life.

-I didn't outrun my asthma.  It turns out that's one I'll have to accept and work with... okay.  I've got some work to do in this area but I'm glad it's out.

-I've had some bad experiences with fellas in the past... all of which have taught me something... for which I am grateful... but I learned recently that there is some healin' to do in this area.

-song writing is some kind of magical thing... I'm not sure if I'll have kids or not, but shoot if I can just write songs and grow a garden it might work out anyway.  I've been delighted by the new form of reflection and how lyrics unfold over time... I didn't even realize what I was talking about half of the time... and then all of the sudden, it means something different.

-"Don't ask what the world needs.  Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it.  Because what the world needs is people who have come alive." -Howard Thurman...and what makes me come alive is environmental work... so I'm off to go do it!

-When I look back, I wanted to join LVC to do some kind of service and let the world get some use out of me while I wasn't sure what to do with myself.  This is exactly what has happened.  Heck yesh!

-Love calls like the wild birds.... If you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.
Kahlil Gibran
The Prophet, On Love.....umm...I can't even tell the details of this silliness that has come over me... but I'm grateful for wild hearted people wondering into my life....and no, I don't understand the timing of things like this... but maybe I don't care.

 

....well that is my grateful list... love to y'all

megs